Breathing in deep

Tomorrow I think I may take a mental health day. I may get coffee, a bagel, and my camera, drive up to the middle of nowhere with Monster Dog and see what happens. It's not that today was busy or overwhelming. It's not that things haven't been going well. It's more that the reality that life is changing is sinking in. More of the reality that the things we change can not be unchanged. And for the most part it is the reality that I would rather spend the day in bed under the covers all by myself than to bother to get dress, get in my car and make the effort to do something. And I hate realizing that....because the moment you understand that it is not a lack of finding things to do that is stopping you but rather the lack of even trying to find them, is the moment you have no more excuses to stop looking.