self portrait by 6am
This is the way I look when I wake up. When I haven't showered, or combed my hair. When I still smell a little like me and a little like my husband. There's no coffee in my veins and no food in my belly. I haven't shaved or brushed my teeth. This is me how God made me and how cheese cake and vanilla cream lattes rounded out his image for me.
Tomorrow The Sgt.'s shop (unit) is having a summer BBQ. It's low key and comfortable. Children will be playing and food will be served. I'm going to make cookies and a cucumber salad.
The military is all about first impressions. In the military you almost always only get one. I don't do well with first impressions. I'm like a fine wine really. A wine that a first taste can come on a little strong and you aren't completely sure what it goes with or how to serve it. So you have to sip on me for a little while and maybe your a little bit drunk or maybe your a little more relaxed but that wine starts to grow on you and you find that you kind of like that wine and you may even want to serve it at your next get together. I'm that wine.
See at 6am in all my glory with no make up on or false details implied, I am completely understandable.
I am a very literal thinker and sometimes jokes don't make that much sense to me and in that I tend not to laugh when you should and this comes off rude. Other times I find that I will laugh at all the wrong times and that comes off rude. Or perhaps without thinking I will correct a person on a statement they have made and this comes of rude. Or maybe I will loose interest and turn my attention somewhere else and this comes off rude. Or maybe, well you see where this is going. For me a conversation should be easy. If someone says "Do I look fat in this dress?" and the answer is "Yes you do." than for me the correct answer should be "Yes, you do."
I do not do well with first impressions. It is the second and the third that I seem to be better at and it really isn't until perhaps the seventh or eighth that I really start to shine and somewhere around the fifteenth to twentieth people really start to love me.
So see while this portrait at 6am show me as God made me and cheese cake and vanilla cream rounded me out there is still a very large part of this portrait that is missing, and I'm a little nervous about how to present it.
Diary of an Air Force Wife
Reader Comments (3)
just smile and nod and take lots of pictures, you are most comfortable with camera in hand, so there you go. You will have established your comfort zone and that should make it easier... and remember, you're not the only one making a first impression... they are there to impress you too!!
and anyway, once they taste your magnificent cucumber salad, they will love you forever! Just like I do :)
Big hugs to all
GG
libs.... I am going to try and be short because I am doing this on my blackberry. Just like granny glo said. Its their first time to make a good impression to you as well. WE ALL HAVE INSECURITYS! No matter who you are! its how you handle your self that is always the most rememberable! The fun loving pure person that you are will always win peoples hearts. And if it dosent, those are proably the people you should stay clear of. they are the people that are not healthy personalitys to have in your life. We have known people like this before, remember mcchord! Trust in your self!! You are wise enugh to spot them in your own! And remember, your impressive to all of us that love you for who you are!
I just found your blog this afternoon, and I must say it is very interesting, and very human- which is comforting to me right now.
Just a few weeks ago I became an Air Force fiance... my boyfriend couldn't afford college anymore and so he enlisted. He left for basic about a week ago, the same day that I left for the semester away.
I hate to be so emotional, but I'm nervous and scared and really don't have any idea what I'm getting into, and when AJ proposed, I knew right away that I want to spend the rest of my life with him and only him... and yet I'm terrified of the military-wife life. I'm terrified of moving always and never knowing anything and being away from my mother and raising kids on a base... but now I realize that so many others have done it, and are doing it now, and that gives me hope.
Anyway, the point of this comment is that I appreciate you, and your blog.
Love always,
Jane